Sitting in The Present
Sitting In The Present
Today was a great day for me to get caught up on all of the things I needed to do I went grocery shopping, did homework that needed to be done, and caught up with some friends I have not seen in a while. It was a great way to decompress and get myself in a happy mindset for the weekend when I have to work and go to other events. After a long night of hosting about fifty people at my house for a pasta night just sitting and taking in all my thoughts without any other distractions was a much-needed break. I decided I was just going to sit at my kitchen counter and observe the world around me for about twenty minutes alone and away from any of my devices or objects to take away from my thoughts.
As I was sitting at my kitchen counter I noticed how many chairs were still left around from the pasta party and how little room was in the space because of this. The space felt cluttered and was bothering me a little about how messy it felt. The sun was setting so the sunbeam was warm and shining in my face but as time passed the room got continuously darker because I had not turned on the light. I had lit a candle before I sat down at the table so the room was filled with an autumn smell that I think was pumpkin spice-scented. My roommates were busy running and going up and down the stairway, so I kept hearing them shuffling around the house and it made me a little anxious.
I felt like the room had nice autumn feel and I noticed the decorations that I had put up the day before. Sitting down and not doing anything for twenty minutes felt very weird to me and almost awkward. I did not enjoy how silent it was but I did like how calming it made me feel. It felt like meditation to me it helped clear my thoughts but my surroundings can still be distracting. This was a fun experiment for me because I wanted to see if I could even just sit for this long and just notice what is going on in my life. I also thought it was interesting how there was a mix of calm and stressful to me in this situation.